Must have been Monday

It must be Monday, but I think it was actually Tuesday. Now I really am about a day off. Rolling into work before 8 am I thought I was being nice, efficient and just this wonderful person, but no, I was once again the second rate citizen of the dream I had in Houston. Well that's OK, I actually did say NO, just not directly to the beast.

I just can't look the beast in the eye and state my overwhelming gut response. I complain to all others, and sneak away under the radar to let others respond to the beast. They tip toe around the beast to avoid the eye contact and never seem to just out and out confront it either. So the beast continues on it's merry way wreaking chaos out of everyday things.

I must be moved, that is the only solution, get me out of the ever watchful eye and let me finally have the peace to work and do what I do best. I need an escape, a refuge, solitude, distance to do what creativity demands.

When I sit at home typing away at my computer I am relaxed in my wonderful chair. I can stop, play a game of Spider and regroup my thoughts or just search for the books that I would like to read. No one comes to my desk and towers over me to look at my screen to learn how I magically make those numbers appear.

The beast calls with the idea that I have hidden from him again some software, which of course is in the same place as always, but he must reload it for the 20th time because he doesn't know the place it hides on his computer. Then comes the subtle admonitions to remind me I am the "lowly, uneducated, step and fetch slave". Oh I am all about compliance and he resumes his control to make me feel less than human. I can not in all good conscious wait for the day that I no longer am under the micro management of this beast!

It can not be that much longer, and I will be free. Free to be the real person I want to be, happy, creative, caring. Maybe some energy will return with this and I will no longer dread each morning and wait for the evening to return to the person I can be.

While in Houston I took video of the zoo. Now I want to do more, upload some video and edit for backgrounds. Make some changes to those classes that are suffering from lack of content. Make them creative and exceptional. This will happen, just maybe not this week! Not on the week of Mondays.