Playing Solitaire

I wanted to post something profound, and not complain, but once again here I am looking at the work I am suppose to finish and playing Spider Solitaire instead. Watching the fights of the hummingbirds which are odd seeing as they should be gobbling up go-juice instead of guarding the territory around the feeders I think that is what I’m doing. Instead of jumping in and finishing the homework (go-juice) I’m thinking of all the reasons and fighting myself to guard my insecurities.
Part of this is feeling helpless; helpless to help my son in Houston, helpless to meld into an online class as an age appropriate student and helpless to help myself out of the feeling of gloom and doom. The gloom and doom part is almost earthquake syndrome, which means there are still more natural disasters that will mean loss of life coming our way. And all the rest is what if!
Some interesting discussions with colleagues (I am amazed to be able to call them colleagues when they are so much more) about what we want our students to “get” out of our classes. Why we do what we do and how we all approach the students is so similar. We have the desire to see these people develop a sense of critical thinking and prove to themselves they are worthy to think such big thoughts. We push ourselves into more and more creative thought with new approaches to send the knowledge through the conduit of words and projects to endow them with the electrifying realization that they discovered the knowledge on their own.
Well, this gives me an idea! I can use this as a pep talk for myself. I can listen to my own advice for a change and just flow with thoughts to do more than regurgitate the information that I am to assimilate in my classes and come up with those creative ideas that will amaze even me into thinking I have gotten the “big” picture!
See those solitaire games are not a total waste, they allow me to file away thoughts and then finally put them into some kind of order.